One by one emotions go numb,
Until all I feel is self loathing,
Temporary comfort found in a crimson grin,
I’m still alive deep within.
The light catches as another grin appears,
Each one is comforting and warm,
All help to alleviate fears,
The numbness lifts momentarily.
The longer they last,
The more I can feel,
Quickly though they become my past,
A moment’s emotion I’ve had to steal.
The more that arrive,
The less helpful they seem,
It’s becoming harder to survive,
All I want is to scream